I’ve always been a Christian. Initially, not in the true sense of the word, but as something I said to answer the question “what religion do you belong to?” as I was born and raised in a Christian home but did not really understand the weight those words carried.
When I truly became a Christian and decided to live by the standard of the word and not the world, I began studying my Bible because I wanted to know what that standard was. I came across the words of Jesus boldly written in red which says;
But those who assume they have very little to be forgiven will love me very little
LUKE 7;47 (TPT)
I love this translation because it used the word ASSUME. which is really what I did. I assumed i had little to be forgiven for since I’ve always been morally upright and felt I didn’t have any ‘obvious’ sins I saw in people who gave their lives to Christ had to repent from. I didn’t go clubbing or attend wild parties hosted by my peers, didn’t smoke, consumed alcohol only when forced, I wasn’t lustful and I didn’t have any addictions (that i knew of). I was basically what the world called a ‘good girl’.
Based on this assumption, I really did not do much when I became a Christian. I was conscious of my salvation, yet I did not know the extent to which i was saved. I placed myself on a spiritual high horse from which I compared myself others because I felt that Jesus only forgave me for little things and not those big ‘obvious’ sins I saw in others.
The day I came across those words written in red, I was thoroughly shaken up. It forced me to evaluate what I thought I knew about being saved. I realized I truly did love Jesus only a little. It was hardly a surprise that I wasn’t seeing any real transformation in my life.
So guess what I did? I loved a lot. I started praying and asking the Holy Spirit to show me how to love Him. I read my Bible and the words of David spoke to me which says;
Search me, O God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
Psalms 139;23-24 (NLT)
I saw that Jesus saved me from behaviors I didn’t even know I had. I had a foul mouth, a really bad temper when offended, addicted to reading sexually explicit novels which I saw as ‘normal’ because well, everyone was reading it. I was insensitive to the feelings of others, had no fruit of the spirit and very judgmental in a negative way. I projected my insecurities to others and had an unforgiving spirit.
As time went by, the change was evident. At first, I didn’t notice but those around me saw an evident change in my behavior. I hardly get offended anymore, I stopped cussing completely and it was painful for me to be around those who did. I was always happy and at peace. I stopped reading books that didn’t contain words that were pure, true, honest and of good report. I was changed and I’m continually being changed from someone who loved a little, to someone who Loves a lot.
Always wonderful when he shows us our true nature without him. Thank God for Jesus.
Honestly. Without Jesus we’re just hollow with no real life in us
Thank you for sharing this. We are nothing without the love of Christ..
I can so relate to this. Over relate is worrying me. God bless you for this❤️
Amen. Thank God it spoke to you. God bless you 😊
This is really beautiful. I pray we are continually being changed into better versions of ourselves in the image of Christ.
Amen. Continually being conformed to his will
Sincerely, I’m moved by the honesty in this post. Thank you
Wow. Thank God it spoke volumes to you
The honesty. It’s blissful. God will continue to show you how to love Him deeper in Jesus’ Name ❤️
Amen. Thanks sis❤️
This is so true. I was also your traditional “good girl” before I understood what Christianity was, and this verse really spoke to me as well
Thank God for the Holy Spirit who guides us into all truth 🙏🏽
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